Caverns of a needing heart

I'm fucking failing.
I'm a fucking failure.
Again.

Where the fuck are you and why have you left me?
You know I can't fucking do it without you!
And what's the fucking point if I can't do it?

I need to do it.
I WON'T live my life as a fat fucking failure.
I CAN'T be a fat fucking failure!!!

I'll try on my own.
I'll try with everything I have.
But I'm hoping you'll come back for me.
I'm desperate for you to remember that you've left me behind.

Save me from myself =[