Out of control

That's what I'd call myself at the moment. Before I slipped back into this I was eating crap and putting on weight, but now, I'm eating 3 x that and then purging it. Everyday for the last... week. That's not right for me. When I used to b/p it would be once or twice in a week, every couple of months. I'm scared that it becoming a regular thing is going to become a regular thing. I feel like shit for it.