I should have guessed

Hmm, I should have guessed that being happy would be short lived. 2 days of feeling happy is all I'm allowed? I thought that this might have been "it." That somehow I'd gotten over the depression, the shitty eating patterns, the pain. By now I should know that that isn't the case. Ever. It was so naive of me to think you can wake up one day and everything is suddenly right again. It's my own fucking fault. I can only blame myself. Again. Shit!